Yesterday(19/12) was jus bad enough for me... is totally not my day...

i woke up early to go to work- jus to reach office on time. but when i reach my hse void deck i saw my top there is a stain so i went up and change. then later found out my bao bei heels is spoil... worse still i cant found a heels that is suitable for me to wear to work. so i jus anyhow wear a sandal. and is slippery until i can jus slide. so in the end late...

Went for the Christmas dinner @ the office auditorium...
one word can describe how i felt: sian.

There was a short powerpt slide presented by our dept head-was a casual one. Then we start the eating and went back to auditorium for lucky draw. haha i won the 44th prize which is a log cake from gaint. There was like ard 60 / 70 prizes... oh and we did xchange the gift (they place all the present on a table then u can go and choose ur own) and i gt a card holder. i tot is a cigarette holder at first sight.

I was like alone eating and sitting alone... ppl i know dunno gone where.... there is a lot of ppl but i dunno them de... maybe in future will know... so is like so paiseh... and i keep trying to like stand near a corner with ppl ard me so that is nt so obvious that i'm alone lor. i wanted to leave but the lucky draw is call by name de... so is heng tt i stay... now i hope they dun clear me... so i can leave. my manager, sup& senior treat me nt bad. but jus i felt left out most of the time. they engage in their own conversation and i have no idea what they talking abt... but who can i blame other than myself... blame me for being a introvert, fat, ugly and not a bootlicker...

in the working world, a person appearance is very impt... very very impt... as well as 会拍马屁。

once i'm able to leave, i jus left asap... dun wish to stay in tt place anymore... now i can actually feel like what happen in one of Lindsay Lohan movie eating in the cubicle. ( cant rember what's the title ) but of cos i nv eat in the cubicle la...

but i truly hope they dun clear me...