Thanks for the concerns that i get and paiseh abt the dun ask... LOL!!!

either not sure what happen or dunno how to explain. So just wanna find a place to let them all out.

sometimes i think that maybe is my character. i have strong character; stronger than his.
I'm used to be the stronger person in this relationship. And I'm tired now. Very tired.
Really would like him to be the stronger person but just cant stand the way he handle and do things. So even when i try to let him take charge of the things; he will just make a mess out of it or do things in a really sloppy way and i can't stand it.

I didn't put much effort into understanding him and accepting him???
whether he did put in effort??? I'm not sure.

It maybe due to the history or I am just cant get over it. Ppl who know what happen might think that I'm narrow minded but i cant just help to be one.

neither ready to let go the past nor accepting it as a flaw in our relationship.

What the hell is wrong with me?

When things get worse between us the history will be bugging me. Why Why Why ???